Wednesday, April 18, 2012

For Now

It is a good day because my kids and I all have new pajamas tonight. I think things like new pajamas don't get the attention they deserve. I mean, why aren't more people blogging about new pajamas because, to be honest, I can't stop making the mental note of "these pajamas are fantastic." No, I'm not going to write an entire post on new pajamas. But, just so you know, I could. And it would be fantastic.

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This morning, shortly after breakfast, Lainey walked out holding a balled-up t-shirt in her hand. "Wear this," she said. I opened it up and recognized it as the shirt a friend of mine had made way back when Nella was a baby. Screen-printed on the front is the photo from the cover of the book--Nella's little feet stretched out against blue sky. "Mama, it's your book," Lainey finished.

I smiled, realizing that maybe she understands more than I give her credit for. We talk about things and she's aware of why I went on a trip. She's flipped through the pages of the book and pointed out her favorite pictures, and I've explained a bit before on what this whole book thing was about. But today I felt the need to tell her more.

"Do you remember what the book is about, Lainey?" I asked.

She smiled sweetly and I sat down, pulled her on my lap and reached for a copy of the book on my desk while I quickly prepared an answer.

"I wrote this book because I love you and Nella so much. It tells the story of all the special things we've done together and how much I love being a mommy. Someday I'll read it to you. And look--" I flipped open to the dedication page and pointed to her name. "I dedicated this book to you. All by yourself. See your name right there?"

And her smile stretched further into her cheeks, wrinkling her nose and squinting her eyes.

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I can practically hear her growing lately. Her curiosity, her courage, her independence, her wit--it's palpable, and I've caught myself looking at her in a way that searches for glimpses of who she will be. I see a teenager, a young woman, a mama.

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Our first visit to Children's Museum of Naples, Tuesday

Both girls have been completely entranced with babies lately. Lainey takes an extra five minutes to buckle her dolls in the back seat before we head out. Nella drags dolls down the driveway, pushes them in strollers, kisses their foreheads. Both girls relieve Heidi of her mothering duties the minute she walks in our house and sets the car seat down. They swarm for Ivy. So it was only appropriate the other day, after Lainey and Nella both stood over Ivy and gently touched her head, waiting for Heidi to finish nursing, that Heidi smiled and gushed, "Kelle, they're going to make the best mamas someday."

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I smiled back. "I hope so," I answered, "--but Nella..." And I stopped.

Heidi quickly continued, "Oh Kelle, I'm sorry. I mean, she can--right? But if she--I mean..."

We talked it out in the way best friends needfully talk things out.

While individuals with Down syndrome can certainly get married, have intimate relationships and yes, have children, it's complicated. But the fact remains for both of my children, that the future is unknown and the choices for the events in their life truly belong to them. We guide those choices in the beginning, but gradually we let go and listen.

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That's hard for me sometimes. Because I know the things that make me happy--and I want my girls to have those same things. I want them to like the beach, yellow, adventure, music, writing, babies and pretty things.

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But my girls might have different dreams. They might express themselves differently. They might need me to show love in a way that is different from how I want to be shown love. Maybe they won't dig unicorns. And that's okay.

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I am learning, not just in parenting but in every relationship, that multiple languages exist and not one is superior to another. The more I listen, the better I love.

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In picturing my girls as teenagers, as young women, I often wonder "What will they say about the kind of mother I was?" I hope they say that I made mistakes but learned from them. That I taught them how to be happy not by expecting them to choose what makes me happy but by pursuing whatever it is that makes them come alive. I hope that at least one of them becomes a mama so they can fully know the depth of how I love them.

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But really, it's all about happiness.

I just want them to be happy.

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Life didn't go as planned for me, and I've never been happier. That truth is about the most valued thing I can give to my girls.

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I did give applause tonight as I proudly watched my four-going-on-fifteen-year-old dance in her new pajamas right before bed, her arms outstretched before her, her right foot perfectly pointed just how she learned in ballet.

"Little girl," I said, "I wish I had a daughter like you." She stopped dancing, ran to hug me and smiled with all her Chicklet teeth.

"You do," she answered. "I'm yours."

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For now.

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Congratulations to the Linkel Designs $50 gift certificate winner, Comment #219, Charlie's Mommy: First off, I am so delighted to say that I am almost done reading Bloom on my Nook. It's bitter sweet...cause I don't want to stop reading.
Secondly, Nella looks so grown up in these pictures. It's like she has sprouted inches within the last weeks. I love the pic of her in the white dress reading the book! Lastly, I'm changing it up a bit for me. I just registered for a 7K run that helps with our city's health initiatives. This is ludicrous for me....I don't run unless I'm chased!! Have a great day!

"Charlie's Mommy," please send your contact info to kellehamptonblog@comcast.net with subject line LINKEL GIVEAWAY WINNER, and you will soon receive a coupon code.

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Welcome back to Melody Joy whose beautiful handmade mama bird nest jewelry is making quite a splash. My two-egg nest ring and necklace are some of my favorite pieces to wear and always conversation starters. Several friends also wear Melody's art, and our kids love to point out which egg is "theirs."

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Melody's nest egg jewelry makes a wonderful Mother's Day gift, and she is currently offering Buy 2, Get One Free for all nest jewelry. Plus, use Code BLOOM for free shipping! Check out Melody Joy's shop (cowls and paintings too), and make a mama happy!

One comment will be randomly selected (random.org) to win a $75 gift certificate, courtesy of Melody Joy.

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I have new pajamas. It is a good day indeed.

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(P.S. Any People magazine readers? There's a full page review of Bloom in the April 22 issue!)

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Lindsay Marie said...

What a beautiful post :) I think you are a wonderful mother and a amazing role model to not only your daughters but for many other people who have fallen in love with your amazing family :)

Katy said...

Perfection! thank you for putting into words how I feel

Jill Carilli said...

I hate to be the first commenter cause the random generator never seems to pick #1. But Congrats on the book. I LOVED it. And I am obsessed with new pajamas. I think I need to get a new pair myself. Thanks for the reminder.

Jessica said...

New pajamas ROCK. I completely agree. You are such a good mama, and thank you for the reminder that I need to slow down and let my boys be who they will be.

alisha said...

This is such a beautiful post, Kelle. I love that first photo of Lainey. How she can look so completely grown-up in one photo and so little girl in another is beyond me... Oh, the mother's heart must break and burst on a daily basis! Thanks for sharing!

Rachael said...

Lovely! I can't believe how big Lainey is getting, when I started reading your blog she was still a toddler :) Love the necklaces!

Elizabeth M. said...

Lets be honest, new pajamas are the best. That is my favorite thing about Christmas.My sweet mama always gets me new pjs:) I loved Bloom so much!

Meghan said...

so we need some details on these fantastic new pajamas of yours :)

Lauren {sippinglemonade.com} said...

Made me cry. Again. There's nothing better than being a mama!

Sarah said...

Oh, such a beautiful post! The words spoke to me as I'm once again adjusting my expectations of parenting. Of expectations I didn't even know I had. For my little girl with autism. To the preteen who tell me she likes girls and not boys and now the teen who tells me they no longer identify with being a girl.

It's one big continuous adjustment but one that is filled with such excitement, new experiences and lessons to learn.

mamaoftwo said...

I love the picture of Nella outside in the tall grass. Gorgeous. Great post.

Stephanie said...

Just perfect. I have tears just thinking of Lainey's comment, "you do, I'm yours". You always perfectly sum up this magical gift of motherhood.

Joann said...

Love your blog!
Waiting for my book to arrive...can't wait to read it!
Thank you...your words inspire me!

catherine.elizabeth said...

Oh Kelle,
Your posts always make my heart swell! and yes a new pair of pajamas are super fantastic, as a an old, soft comfy pair that you have had for far too long!
Have a great weekend, I am headed to NYC, thank you for all your instagram pics you posted last week, got me all excited!

Brooke said...

Okay, I've got to get some new pajamas now. Loving Bloom. You inspire.

MissingMolly said...

I love this post. A lot of wisdom here.

Both of your girls are beautiful, and life can get complicated whomever we are. As long as there's love--that's what matters.

Jule said...

oh Kelle that was beautiful. I was crying last night because my eldest starts school next year, she ready and it will be great but it's her first big step away from me. You've made me feel like somebody else understands. thank you xx

Mommypoehl said...

love this post :)

Mommypoehl said...

love this post :)

5boysand1girlmake6.com said...

I am so hitting target tomorrow because I NEED some new pjs and so do my kiddies! Your girls are the best! Kids and their light it always amazes me! YAY for people mag! You ROCK! Katie

Stacey W said...

Beautiful post. Oh...and pajamas are so underrated!

Sarah said...

Wow. This may be my fav post. It is so hard to not only understand that what makes us happy may not make our kids happy, but to put that concept into your life, well, Bravo! Good job Mama!

Br00ke said...

I was wondering all along if those feeties on the front of the book belong to one of your girls! Happy to find out they do! Speaking of feeties, and the greatness pajamas, do you own adult footie pajamas? If you don't, let me tell you you should!

Joann said...

Love your blog!
Waiting for my book to arrive...can't wait to read it!
Thank you...your words inspire me!

LEF said...

So beautiful and inspiring. Thank you for reminding me to be present in my very blessed life.

Brittany Williams said...

your babies are so beautiful. your pictures are breathtaking. blessings to you. :)

http://bnoelwilliams.blogspot.com/

Lisa said...

Well, I may have ordered a new pair of earrings after the last post, and it's possible that I might have a new pair of pajamas by the end of the week. ;-)
Wonderful post. My oldest (3.5) is amazing us lately with her sudden increased maturity (mixed in with the occasional tantrum). We just can't get enough of it!

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Teresa said...

I love this post. When I saw you dedicated to Lainey tears just ran down my face, what an honor you have given her. I don't comment often, but this post really made me feel, above all, love.

Carin said...

You know... our Rylee absolutely loves to take care. She does exactly what your girls do with their baby dolls. She's a nurturer. And I do sometimes think about what the future holds for her. But before I get a little teary about the possibility of her not being a Mom, I remind myself that there are so many wonderful, amazing "Mom-like" roles in the world that need to be filled. There are many ways she can take care of the world, and I am confident that she WILL if she chooses to do so.

(Rylee taking care of her babies: http://caringriffith.blogspot.com/2011/02/babies.html and http://caringriffith.blogspot.com/2011/03/taken-care.html)

Now, I'm off to continue reading your book and buy myself some new jammies. :)

Jenny said...

Started your book this morning and am half way through. Loving it. And looking forward to reading the rest.

Love how confident Lainey looks in those ballet photos. Little ones growing up is just the most surreal, amazing thing (I have a three year old who amazes me every day).

Kim said...

Thank you for reminding me tonight, what happiness is all about, how to remember that what we have is worth so much more than what we give it credit. You're always an inspirational source for me in times of great and not so great. I thank you tremendously for your uplifting and encouraging words, always.

The Cruce Family said...

Love, love, love this post.

Aren't we all glad that things didn't turn out as "planned"? I like to think that life always out-smarts our plans, anyway!

Great review in People...you SO deserve it!!

Joanna said...

I love how the words you use speak to every mother out there in a different way. "I'm yours." reminds me that these babies are only mine for so long. Soak it in...

Peeper said...

This sentiment was actually included in our wedding vows. Something to the effect of "you may have some goals that are different from mine but they are no less important". I don't see how it's possible for a relationship to flourish unless the needs and ideas of the other person are respected and embraced to some extent. Such an important thing to remember, especially with our kids.

Peeper said...

This sentiment was actually included in our wedding vows. Something to the effect of "you may have some goals that are different from mine but they are no less important". I don't see how it's possible for a relationship to flourish unless the needs and ideas of the other person are respected and embraced to some extent. Such an important thing to remember, especially with our kids.

Ali's Mom said...

I too LOVE new Pajamas!! So funny the things you come up with that just hit home with so many people! People Magazine too - wow - you are a rock star!

HellcatJill said...

New pajamas rank right up there with freshly laundered and line-dried sheets! Even better would be both on the same night. :)

I love the birds' nest necklaces. Maybe I'll do some hinting for myself for Mother's Day. ;)

Unknown said...

This post reminded of how often I find myself watching my little boy while he’s playing, doing homework, sleeping, and I think to myself, even though he seems so much older and more mature to me than the previous years, he’s also the youngest he’ll ever be again. I don’t know what the future holds for my baby, but whatever it is, I’ll still be his cheerleader. Great post! Also, I LOVE new pajamas.

Tamara said...

I love your blog and I can't wait to get your book. I should have it in the mail on Friday. Yay!!

earlynovemberlove said...

You probably *should* write a whole post on new pajamas some day :) sounds good to me! This one was great how it is though.

Kat said...

My heart feels like its in my throat and I'm still trying to catch my breath. Its crazy how that happens, everything is normal and fine and then the reality of the future pops up and slaps you in the face. Last week I caught myself saying to my husband "when our girls have babies" and I stopped because that may not happen. My "oldest" Taylor is 6 and my youngest Madison, who has Down syndrome, will be 4 in July. It seems everytime I start to feel comfortable and the calmness of "I got this" washes over me the fear of the unknown creeps up and shakes my confidence. I appreciate that you don't always make your blog about Down syndrome. For a while I didn't understand because I see all the thousands of people that come to your blog and see it as a huge platform but I get it now. Our worlds don't need to revolve around Down syndrome, if we want people to accept our children then we need to speak of them as children and not always as children who have Down syndrome. At the same time I am glad when you do mention issues such as this one tonight, it reminds us that we aren't alone in our thoughts and even our pain.

Hope said...

I have no doubt that you're a wonderful mother and even less doubt that your girls know it! Beautiful post, pictures, and girls!

nicolette gawthrop said...

bird nest-tastic! your cup, Kelle Hampton, runnith over :)
your little ladies are great white lights. as a mother is two small boys, it's painful to imagine never sharing the feeling of being a mother with a daughter. therein lies the blessing of little girls.

Hazel said...

Oh Kelle, I love these blog posts, where you ruminate on your daughters and your relationship with them. I love that place you get to by the end of these posts.

The light in Florida is amazing. Australian sun can be so harsh for most of the year, your light is soft and I love how you capture that in sun flares, and those golden halos of light blonde hair around your girls faces. Just so beautiful.

I finished Bloom last night for the first time. I think I've just started again straight away. I can't believe though you picked the story of Jeremy as a section to read out for you not to cry in. I cried the most at that part.

My brother has Asperger's syndrome, and when he was young he was fairly uncommunicative. As we grew up, he literally came out of his shell, and although he may not understand others emotions, he certainly can feel them. I am sure he can be truly joyful, more than I'll ever be. He lights up when he holds our niece. He loves babies. I love his birthday cards, he always writes the most touching things, simple, but you know he means them, he's not just writing something in there because it's expected.
But also I know he's been so hurt in the past by people who have been unkind to him, because he's different. And he knows. It hurts him bad.
I'm glad Jeremy taught you something, but more importantly through your book, he's taught a whole heap of other people too.
Enjoy your week.xo

Comfypjs said...

Sounds like you have read the book called 'The 5 Love Languages.' If not, it is a wonderful book! After reading it you will be able to tell which one of the 5 love languages Lainey and Nella possess.

Morgan said...

I LOVE the mama nest necklaces! I'd be so happy to win the gift card but will be buying one (or 3 since they would make a great gift) regardless!

Olivia- wife. mother. photographer. said...

You are a beautiful example of how to mother Kelle. You really are. I hope you're not like me and are able to take that compliment with it's full value. I meant every word.

kris_bell said...

Kelle, I love that you have enrolled Lainey in dance classes. I was a dancer for 15 years and my love for dance stemmed from the many impromptu "performances" my sister and I put on for my parents. I also admire your commitment of documenting these wonderful moments in Lainey and Nella's lives. Right now my parents are converting old home videos of my siblings and I to a digital form and I get calls and texts daily about the goofy things I did. As I am away at college it is a wonderful reminder of the love my parents have for me. So, even though you already probably know this, your children will treasure your photographs and photo books forever (especially when they are homesick at college).

Stephanie said...

They are both beautiful! and I love me some new pajamas as well :)

Jennjilla said...

What a perfect Mothers Day gift! I love Heidi's necklace and your ring, they are gorgeous. ;)

sarah said...

I can't wait to hear my daughter say, "I'm yours". She'll be mine for always.

LadyDi said...

I got new jams today too! Swear! And I have way more than I need. But I can't help myself. Shoes and jams!

Consider The Lilies said...

new pajamas are good like freshly washed sheets :)

I'm graduating college in 30 days and my plan for the day after grad is to start reading your book!

received my signed book plate in the mail a few days back and it was the highlight of my week! Thanks Kelle!

TLouise said...

Love this post!
I also love new pjs!!

Lynne said...

you are right - the necklaces and rings are beautiful. You are also right about the new pajamas - new ones at Christmas time when I was a kid are a great memory!

Sharmaine said...

your girls are definitely going to be great mamas!

Jodi Ann said...

Kelle, I so love your words. Especially this post. It touched so dear to my heart. I often think of my boys having kids of their own, and then having to pause, knowing that things will most likely be different for our oldest.
"I am learning, not just in parenting but in every relationship, that multiple languages exist and not one is superior to another. The more I listen, the better I love." What truth!

Jot said...

Love new pyjamas! My mum has made it a tradition now to give us and our kids pyjamas for Easter, along with a few Easter eggs. I actually look forward to the pyjamas even more than the chocolate. :)

WhatDoesTheFutureHold said...

I LOVE the picture of Lainey in the blue dress with the sun hat...adorable!

And I started following melody on instagram recently! :)

Love is all you need said...

Beautiful words as always. I could see Lainey as a teen and woman in some of those pictures, she is growing so fast. I love watching their beautiful lives unfold. It is so inspiring.

Kelly Cach said...

Aaaw...I loved this. The depth of your heart can't be measured, I'm sure of it!!!

I have admired Melody Joy's cowls for SOOO long! And the bird nests are the sweetest symbol of motherhood....almost makes me cry!

Stephanie said...

I was knee deep in laundry and dishes and a sick baby tonight--I needed a little inspiration about being a mama. Thank you for this post.

The Adelman Twins said...

your writing is so beautiful- congratulations on your recent success with the book! Rock on!

sheri said...

You have this amazing way of taking seemingly DS-specific situations and making them applicable to all of us. And I never see it coming!

Andrea Lozano said...

Just reading this makes me want to get up and buy my son and I new pajamas. Matching ones, that we can cuddle, laugh, and enjoy life in.

AlisonLeigh said...

I am not a mommy yet, but oh how you inspire me. You are incredible and amazing. I hope you know that. You inspire me to be a better person, a better wife, and someday a better mother. Thank you for being absolutely amazing.

The Students Wife said...

I seriously love new pajamas and I love new pajamas on my little boy too. Always makes me wants to snuggle

Www.studentswife.com

Ashley said...

I'm so obsessed with jammies too! Probably because we spend too much time in them in my house : )

Wonderful mamma post, love your words!

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PrivatelyPublic said...

Just wanted to say lovely, happy day to you! Beautiful photos. The one of Lainey looking straight into the camera slays me, and Nella in the wildflower brush is muy precious.

eval said...

I hope you're still blogging when the girls are teenagers. I'm always going to want to know what they are up to :)

la librivendola said...

Mi piace moltissimo il tuo modo di essere mamma: così dolce e consapevole!

I like so much your way to be a mom: so sweet and conscious! (I'm sorry for my English)

angela

Gentle Blue Mom said...

Lainey looks so grown up in her ballet outfit! Your blog is a beautiful testament of the love of your children.

Brook Parker said...

"Life didn't go as planned for me, and I've never been happier. That truth is about the most valued thing I can give to my girls."

One of my favorite quotes you have said :) You are so wise & I love your blog. I'm a mom to irish twin preemies & while it's certainly not the same as your life, your words ring so true to me. You will always have a faithful reader in me!

galway girl said...

What a beautiful post, I can "hear" my little girls growing all the time too and am always catching glimpses of what they will be like when they are older. It makes me happy and sad at the same time!

You're amazing Kelle, keep up the good work x

medina family said...

a post full of wisdom. I hope I can remember it all.

Team Lando said...

Oh, I have those same thoughts with Ellie... and then I think that at the very least, she'll be a great aunt... so I better have another kid.

waitingforheaven said...

Your blog is really beautiful and uplifting. I've nominated you for a Versatile Blogger Award: http://bit.ly/IUFXvL
Regards,
Vanessa

Lesley said...

What a beautiful post. I have been thinking the same thing lately. Something you wrote resonated more than the rest...
"But my girls might have different dreams. They might express themselves differently. They might need me to show love in a way that is different from how I want to be shown love."

I think that you can change 'might' to 'will'. Because even if their dreams remind you of yours, they will be different in every way because they come from a different place.

Your post is lovely and thought provoking and reflects how I am feeling lately.

The pictures are as always, something special.
Thanks
Lx

susana said...

LOVELY PHOTOS!
YOUR DAUGHTERS ARE AMAZING!*
SHOULD HAVE BEEN A VERY FUN DAY

HAVE A NICE DAY*

Melissa said...

I am happy that I am not the only one excited about new pajamas!!!! I get so excited when we are all jammied out, my husband looks at me like I have 3 heads! Love your posts and outlook on life, keep em coming!

God's Girl said...

Have you read the 5 love languages by Gary Champman? He also wrote one for children and teens...they are fantastic and eye opening to how to love the ones you love better! Beautiful pics :-)

Jen said...

First, I'm a birds nest freak! Next, you don't have to be a mama to use your mad nurturing skills. There are so many roles in life that require kindness, compassion, empathy, and nurturing. Both your girls will rock at that!

Abby said...

I think for the Hampton girls, it's pretty safe to assume the unicorns are in...

Love the photos and words, the girls, Nella's rosy bow, and love your Dad's popped collar.

April Vernon said...

Good stuff, Kelle! Have a great day!

Danielle H. said...

Yes! I receive People magazine weekly and was delighted to flip the page and see Bloom. Adorable picture of you, Lainey and Nella in People. Your girls will make great mamas. I hope the same for my daughter...one day.

Lindsay said...

beautifully written, as always - and the photos, oh the photos, they are little story books all on their own...lovely.

Gretchen A. McNally said...

I ♥ new pajamas and freshly washed out- of-the-dryer pajamas!

Now I am totally in a pajama shopping mood!

Bulldogma said...

Kelle - this is a great post! You touched upon one of those deeply seeded questions so many of us moms of kids with Down syndrome have. I've thought about it too... in some ways I'm scared to think about it, and in others... I wonder just how far medical interventions *could* come in the way of helping our children's brains stretch and make new, healthy connections. In fact, research in Alzheimer's will likely impact our children who have a tendency to build up the same plaques in their brains early on.
If money was used properly... for funding medical research and not just campaigns for deeper understanding (which I am NOT complaining about, so don't misunderstand my intentions) who knows what could be in our children's futures? Anything is possible.
HUGS

Shaina said...

Now I'm craving new pajamas ;-)

I don't think life would be as fun if it always turned out as we planned. It's the unexpected bumps and turns and surprises that keep our lives interesting. That's why I loved your book so much. You wrote about how awesome the unexpected in life can be. And as I was sitting in my living room yesterday, watching my 3yr old dance around, I spotted your book on my floating bookshelf...and just above it is an oil lamp reading Eleanor Roosevelt's words: "The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." ...I didn't do that on purpose, but they mesh so well together on that shelf. :-)

Thank you for always speaking the truth and for telling us how it is. Because while it's not always unicorns and rainbows...it's always life. And life is awesome!

Mama Sarah said...

OH! I could have TWO eggs in my mama bird nest! Wouldn’t have been able to say that a wee bit ago!
Such beautiful pics in this post, as always, Kelle. Getting the book this weekend, and super excited!

Southern Gal said...

Finding joy in the little things is what it's all about. You do that well, Kelle.

sarah said...

Hi!
Today I am goig out to buy my second copy of Bloom! I read halfway through my first copy before passing it on to my cousin, who just had a very unexpected birth. I hope your story will help to heal hers.

Your post today reminded me of one of my favorite books, The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman. It's a great reminder of the different kinds of love that different people need.

LOVE your blog! Thanks for being such an inspiration!

Sarah
(www.simplysmommies.blogger.com)

Raegan said...

Great post! And you know what? I actually love that Heidi said that because it means that she truly looks past Down Syndrome and sees Nella for who she is...a lovable, perfect little girl who will make a great caretaker...if not to her own children then to her friends babies, nieces, nephews, any child because she is learning how to be a great mother from you!

Jennifer said...

Beautiful post, Kelle! Your book was so inspiring and I plan to read it for a second time. I follow Melody Joy on Instagram and she seems like the sweetest Mama!

Dee said...

That "For Now" part is what tugs at my heart with my two little ones. Beautiful post, as always.

XO,
Beauty Musts for Moms

Erin said...

Happiness...isn't that what this is all about? Thank you again for continuing to remind us how easy it is, when we pay attention to th elittle things :)

J Scheppl said...

Beautiful post!!! Today, I'll finish the book, super sad it has to end, its such an incredible book!

Joy said...

I love that your daughters aren't smiling in every picture. You have a great eye for catching all their expressions.

Amanda said...

Love this post and love new pajamas!

Jennifer from NJ said...

Interesting how my mom was the exact opposite of me as a mommy. She was obessed with cleaning and making our ohouse perfect that all of my memories of our time together involve cleaning, or setting the table for dinner. Everyday we do fun things and smile alot. I just gave my son a piggyback ride from his bed downstairs to the kitchen!

Nicole said...

Such a great post! I love magazines, a fantastic article, congrats!!!

Laurel said...

Your new pajamas rant made me laugh . . . my daughter is 2 1/2 and has the habit of getting naked in bed, so sleeps in zip up pajamas on backward. Lately it has been getting warm, so I cut off the arms and feet on a pair, and she looks like a little redneck with cropped sleeves. That kid needs some new pajamas!

Katie said...

Kelle, I love your reminder that life doesn't go the way we plan it to and that's okay. Happiness can still be found and is quite often found more abundantly through God's different plans for our lives. I like this! It takes the pressure off us :).

Ps, I LOVED Bloom. I could go on forever about how much I love your colors, font choices, layout designs, etc but more importantly, I LOVE the story God has blessed you with!

Benay said...

The first photo of Lainey is breathtaking. And People magazine? Congrats!

Jenna said...

beautiful blog post! I don't think any mother could have said it better! Love the bird nest jewelry! It's stunning!

Kate said...

As a fellow pajama lover, I relate. Someday, please finish your pajama thoughts.

Amy said...

Both of your girls are so lucky to have you as their mama. We all want things for our children that they may not see for themselves. Keep being the person you are and they'll teach you to love the people they become.

Emily said...

First - yes, new pajamas are grand!
Second - your Children's Museum is Beautiful! WOW!

Most importantly - wonderful message. We can not know what the future holds for us or our dear littles. But we can love them and have wishes and dreams for them and hold them close...for now.

Lyndsey said...

Pajamas are huge in our house. I love the two piece flannel sets which my mom has always made fun of because I prefer to be all covered up all year long. *I also like to wear my husband's pajamas when he is at work, somehow they still smell like him even after they are washed and it is such a comfort*

momMYsliceoflife said...

Love this post.
Love new pjs.
Love Girlfriends with whom you can discuss anything and everything.
:)

Tricia said...

I saw Bloom reviewed in People and I may have squealed a bit for you. So exciting! I love the book. LOVE it.

Jessica said...

Ooh, I love nest egg jewelry!

dldhome said...

I love new pajamas, I NEED new pajamas, but some jewelery would be nice, too!

Susan said...

As always... your words touch my soul. You make me want to be a momma so badly!

Little for a Little While said...

Beautifully said Kelle. Reading your words is the best way to start my day. Inspiring and insightful. Thank you.

Kristin said...

I love new pajamas too. It's something my husband just doesn't GET, but I'm glad I'm not the only one!

Laura said...

I too love to shop for and wear new pajamas... until I get in bed and then it is way too hot for great pjs.

Love the nest ring! Also, I love that Lainey said "I'm yours" it made me choke up.

Sarah G said...

I have two daughters as well, ages 2 1/2 and 16 months, and they're already little mamas, too. Of course it's what we want for them, because we have that first hand experience of how wonderful it is to be a mama. Ultimately though, we just want them to be happy. So right now I will enjoy seeing them happily playing with their dolls and cooking in their kitchen. If they grow up to have babies of their own, and we find ourselves once again baking cookies in the kitchen together, then that will be wonderful. But if not, that's okay too. As long as they are happy.

Paige said...

Lainey is seriously so cute in her ballerina attire. I can't wait to get People mag now! Wahooooo!!!!!

Brooke Piercefield said...

I love new pajamas! :) Every day when I get home, that is the first thing I change into :) My mom does the same thing, I guess it's like mother like daughter :) Your girls are beautiful :) Have a great day!

Katie said...

Very well said...it's interesting to become a mother while at the same time seeing your own relationship with your own mother in a new light. Definitely makes you wonder what your kids will think about you as a mom.

Amy said...

You've been blessed with a glimpse into the future with that picture of Lainey at the sink. Oh, what wonderful woman that girl will be! And she will always be yours--now, as your daughter, later as your friend.

Melissa said...

I am again amazed at how alike we all are, despite our wonderful differences. Every post, every comment, I find something that resonates deep within.

This post reminds me of a story my pastor told about a young man he taught during the pre and teen years. The young man graduated HS, was accepted to a good college chosen by his parents, studying engineering like his dad did and yet he felt called to another path...to enter seminary. He sought out his youth pastor to discuss his conviction because he knew his parents wouldn't approve this change in his life path. Not that his parents were against God, in fact his dad was a church deacon. But becoming a pastor wasn't what the father thought he wanted for his son. And so the young man rejected his calling to seminary to follow his parents wishes. But after about a semester, he dropped out of the engineering program, then college all together, then just drifted through life, from job to job, place to place, looking for his happiness.

It's hard to put aside our dreams for our children when their dreams start to grow, but I think valuing who they truly are is one of the best gifts we can give our kids.

Thanks for the beautiful reminder.

caleigh.crow said...

I think I need new pajamas! It's been way too long. Your words today touched something in me that I keep way deep down but ultimately know no matter what my dreams are for my son..that he will have his own and I will love him and he will still be 'mine' :) enjoys yours :)

SB's Sweatshop of Love said...

What sweet girls! They are learning to be sweet mamas from their sweet mama!

Lisa Hewlett said...

Beautiful post. The hardest part of being a mama is the knowledge that your heart could break at any moment. But that risk is so worth the swelling your heart feels when you connect with them.

Platinum Rose said...

Can't wait to check out the People magazine review, how cool you're "in there".

I love the points you made in this post about being a mother, and what you hope to pass onto your kids. I completely agree and hope so much that I can do the same for mine!

Have a great day!

Jaime said...

Kelle, what a beautiful post! I hope to half the mother you are! Keep up the good work! xoxo

Party of Ten said...

I understand what you are saying...for now, life is good. Everyone is healthy, happy, clothed, fed, and clean. We are all under the same roof. We are together.

cathy said...

my boys are 27, 24 & 20 & Kelle, I am still learning from and with them and it is so very beautiful...time and situations change but being a Mama does not..I am Bloom(ing) with them ;)

enjoy them

xoxo
cathy

cathy said...

You are such an inspiration. I am a mom of 5 (now grown) children. I wish I had taken more time while they were young to truly enjoy the little moments more. I share your blog with my daughter in hopes that when she becomes a mother she will enjoy the small things.

Jen said...

I love your blog. I read Bloom in one afternoon and I think I might go back and read it again after I get it back from my friend!
Jen

Nis said...

Beautiful girls, beautiful mama. Beautiful new pajamas.

sarah said...

Ahhh...new pajamas...love them! I always bought a new nightgown to wear after birth of each of my 4 kids. I always feel so happy when I wear those! I love the pic of you on couch w/ your dog's lil head resting on your leg..mine does that too...so cozy! Making our children happy is our #1 job...looks like you're doing a great job!

Evelyn Louise said...

My girl (3yo) just got new PJs today from her Granny Mac & Pop (who we are visiting). Well, not pajamas in the sense of what we usually wear at home - she got two nightGOWNS and she is thrilled.
They got washed this morning to be ready to wear tonight...

Love Melody Joy's jewelry... the nest necklace is one of my favorite things I've ever seen. Haven't gotten around to buying one for myself because I keep dropping hints that no one is picking up... A buy 1 get 1 sale may just kick me into buying it for myself.

Rolling Off The Edge... Together said...

It has been awhile since I commented but I am always happy to see a post from you in my reader!

Carly said...

New pajamas are more of a thrill for me than a new outfit! Sweet post!

Kristin said...

Kelle - You're truely an inspirational mother! I'm 1/2 way through Bloom and I have cried and laughed. Enjoy the rest of your week.

Susan Sene said...

Your blog is so refreshing! And I LOVE Melody's mama nest pieces!

Rosemary said...

Even better than new pajamas by themselves is when it is also clean sheet day. So you have nice, clean sheets AND new pjs. Nothing better!

Just finished my book last week. Loved it, but I was sort of sad when it was over.

Janet said...

I just had to comment about new jammies. I totally agree, and didn't realize there were so many other people who felt the same! There's no better feeling than new jammies....except maybe a snuggle with a fresh baked baby!

Julie said...

New jammies are great! Nice post; my four children, all the way from 19 to 2, are my greatest teachers. --Julie B.

Michelle said...

I needed this today. Thank you.


Elle (Mom of 2 teen girls heading in their own direction.)

tricia*kushman*anderson said...

Those jewels are awesome! Great post. I am now in a complete panic wondering how my kids think I am as a mother : ) Our dreams may or may not be our children's dreams. So true.

Gretchen said...

New PJs are right up there with a perfect cup of coffee and a good book. <-> This close to heaven. The girls are growing by leaps and bounds, and it is so fun to be along for the ride! The nest jewelry is gorgeous and with the gift card or the buy 2 get 1 deal, an AWESOME Mother's Day gift. :-)

kimberly said...

For now. Yesterday was a celebration of my daughters 5th month of life. I whispered in her ear asking her to stay that little, for always. While she may not really heed my advice, I do know that the spot where she rests her head everyday will be there for her, everyday. Whether she is 5 months old of 50 years old. This post reminds me of how much EACH of my children are all mine, for now.

Erin said...

i can't wait to become a mom someday... i hope to be half as good of a mom as you are. obsessed with your blog and your book. thank you.

MommaJ said...

I can't wait to get a copy of Bloom and sit back with a cup of coffee and spend an entire day taking in your wonderful writing! Your inspire me, girl!

Erin said...

I'm totally guilting of loving new jammies myself! Target is definitely dangerous in their comfy pants and tanks are just too cute to pass up!

Sooo looking forward to reading yoru book. My birthday is tomorrow so I'm hoping I get it as a gift :) If not- I'm going straight out to buy it!!

Ben and Jessica Buehner said...

I am sure your babies will be saying some fabulous stuff about you when they talk about their Momma! That is one think you will not have to worry about :-)

Karen said...

I usually read People online, but I just might need to pick up a copy of this one!

Angela said...

ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC images in this post. Your girls are just so beautiful and I adore the peek into your lives. Thank you.

Mands said...

Ugh....too much talk of babies growing up and being..sigh...adults. My LO is only 2! But I see in other Momma eyes how fast time flies and I hope I don't miss anything :)

Valerie Hartman said...

I preordered 10 copies for my book club and a couple of friends. When I surprised two ladies with your book, they couldn't stop flipping through the pictures with smiles and joy. So before they read a word, they were hooked.

Later that day, I received a text from one who couldn't stop reading, and didn't want to. My other friend said in the morning, "No matter where I pick it up and flip to, I am entranced and feel the love."

As for myself, I refuse to start the book until I can savor every page. Four more weeks of my semester and you will have my full and undivided attention. Big thanks for spreading your joy in so many ways. It is a gift and I thank you.

Jessica said...

On Tuesday, I got a pedicure while reading "Bloom" and of course I had to pick a color from OPI's new "Holland" collection...it just felt right.

I'm loving the book, thanks for letting us even more into your life.

Crystal said...

I love Lainey in her ballet outfit! So sweet.

kate • one more thing said...

"I hope they say that I made mistakes but learned from them. That I taught them how to be happy not by expecting them to choose what makes me happy but by pursuing whatever it is that makes them come alive. I hope that at least one of them becomes a mama so they can fully know the depth of how I love them."

I hope for the exact same things. You said this so beautifully it brings tears to my eyes. Thank you.

Molly said...

Kelle, looking toward the future both thrills and terrifies me as a mama. I want my boys to be happy too. And I always wonder, who will they become? I try to stay in the present but it is difficult sometimes. Aren't we always looking ahead to what's next? Some of that is always good. But fears seem to arise when we daydream about tomorrow. At least for me they do. And it seems they do for you too. I think it's only natural to worry about what they'll be like as teenagers and adults. As mamas I think we all know that we're in for some troubling times. Our hearts will hurt when our babies (yes, they'll always be our babies) are hurt. But as you always say, we have to let them learn their lessons in order to grow into full people.

Holly Rehmann said...

Oh goodness, this post made me so happy. Thank you for sharing your beautiful thoughts and photos.

:)

Kate and Geoff said...

YES! New PJ's are the best- especially little footie ones- I love snuggling with my boys in their soft and warm pjs:)

Jillian22 said...

Kelle, thank you for the signed bookplate! I have been passing my copy of your book around for everyone to read. I also discussed your book and my journey and thoughts reading through it on my blog Musings of a Bookworm at www.musingsbookworm.blogspot.com. It was just what I needed for what I was going through at the time.

Trini said...

This was a beautiful post! Nella and Lainey will become beautiful women of God. He's got their lives mapped out; the kids, the husbands, the jobs, everything. Trust in Him!

(I really want to read your book, BTW!)

My Mom's Shops said...

Kelle - you are an amazing mother, and you inspire others to be amazing as well.

Jen B. said...

I'm halfway through the book and cannot put it down! What a gifted writer you are. Thank you for the inspiration you give to live joyfully and embrace life one moment at a time.

Shannon said...

I agree...new pajamas don't get the credit they deserve. I also want to tell you that I understand (in a very different way) your emotion surrounding Nella and her being a mama. My sister is 28, has an extra 21st, and LOVES babies like no one I know. I watch her, knowing that she may not understand that she will probably never get to be a mama. And it breaks my heart to see that. But I know that when I someday have babes of my own, their Auntie Sam will have a love for them that will be a close second to the love that I will have for them. And my babes will be richly blessed in having an Auntie who can show them a type of love that can only be found on the extra 21st.

amypins said...

So true. I have 2 daughters, 4yrs and 1yr old, and I just the other day watched them longingly letting my mind drift to imagine what life will be like in 20 years. Fretting over if they'll be happy, if i'll have "done enough" what they'll be like as young women, all that stuff. And like you I try to remind myself that even with all the greatest intentions and love in the world a major factor in who they will be and how they will be is them, simply them, and I can't control that, but I have to be aware of it and flow with it.

oh, and i love new PJs too.

Charlie's Mommy said...

Woohoo on the People Magazine!! That's wonderful and such great exposure.

MG Atwood said...

Girl, you are rising so quickly to the stars that you must be dizzy. Happiness is all we can hope for when it comes to our children. If they are happy, all the rest will fall into place.

Danielle said...

I love your blog! YOu inspire me! I just finished your book and I am ready for another one ;)

Victoria said...

awesome!!

i have a PEOPLE subscription and was so excited when i turned the page and saw your book review!! :)

happy day!

Alex said...

Lots of good points. And even if Lainey or Nella don't become mama's to their own kids, they can be "mama's" to nieces, nephews or friends kids--just like we all can!

Stephanie said...

I just finished Bloom. I read it cover to cover in just two days. I couldn't put it down. Thank you for sharing your amazing story.

Ironically, I was also on Melody Joy's etsy site yesterday looking at which piece I want to order for myself, my mom, and my best friend.

I look forward to each of your posts!

Jo Anna said...

New PJs are always a happy thing!!

Elena said...

When my daughter turned 4, she asked me if her brother would be a Daddy some day. Since the vast majority of males with Ds are sterile, I had to come up with an answer quick. I simply replied that he probably wouldn't be a Daddy but he would make the best Uncle to her children. While my answer satisfied her, it still broke my heart a little.

Leah said...

Beautiful as always. :)

Jannice said...

I'm not going to lie...tht last line that you wrote, "for now" got me! I often think of that day when my girls move on and it hurts. Time goes by waaayyy too fast. Congratulations on People!

Lana said...

I loved this post. I often wonder about those same things- what would my girls be like when they were teenagers, women, mothers. Now I can say: my stepdaughter abruptly left her bratty teenage years when she became pregnant and now? Now she is 20 and is the most wonderful mother of a 1-year-old. My own firstborn is 13 and I can see the young woman coming through her. It is a beautiful age- yes hormonal and unpredictable- but she is becoming independent but still loves and wants her Momma. And my baby is 10. Still a little girl who needs to be reminded to brush her hair. She has no interest in make-up or "girlie" things and would never wash her hair if I let her. :) I have such lovely stages in these girls all around me (1, 10, 13 and 20)and each one is spectacular. The future is wonderful, Kelle!

Ramirez said...

Just bought "Bloom" and hope it ships quickly. I know it will be a good read. Thanks for the opportunity to win the necklace but I have six children, can she possibly fit that many eggs in a nest? ;)

Enlightened Mama said...

so much of what you say rings true to me. I am so excited for you on this journey...congrats on your book

Denise said...

Holy crap, really. This post that started out with pajamas makes me cry? I ponder and think about my kids growing up all the time and I know I should be happy to be raising independent wonderful little people....but really it just makes me sad. Your last quote with Lainey, was just amazing. What a sweet little girl you have, I hate when I look at my kids and literally see them growing before my eyes. My oldest is 13 and everything that that entails, I see college, boyfriends and moving out barreling down on me. I glance in the back seat at my 2.5 year old, knowing he is my last and wept because 3 years old is coming all to fast and he is just my little baby. I want him to stay that way forever. Great post, Kelle.

Debby said...

I'll have to get a People today. Loved your book.......and all the special pictures.
As a Mom of a special needs child....you do greive what won't happen........but you never know either. I think a goal of happy is the most important with a helping of kindness. I always prayed that my children would be nice.......it sounds funny I know.

Shel said...

Tears again today...especially since this week, my grandma has only a few short days or even hours left with us on this earth. Being a mother has always been something I wondered if I would ever do, being a mother to a little girl, seemed almost an unreachable dream. When my perfect girl Chloe was born, with Down Syndrome, I thought this is it!!! Then I had those days...the ones where I worried about her future, would she get married, could she? Is there a chance that she would have a baby? Then the reality hit and she was diagnosed with Leukemia, and after almost 3 long years of chemo treatment I realized....nothing is certain. I am blessed with both my kids, and one of them fought a war. I am grateful that she is with me today, and I no longer worry about the future. But on weeks like this, as I watch in pain as my mom loses her mom, and I lose my grandma...motherhood is special...and I still hope, just a little bit....

Krystle said...

Love it! You have made my sluggish morning so much better. I love love love the picture of the girls in the car! Squeeze on in there!!

New PJs are probably right up next to the list of clean sheets on the bed. So wonderful, the simple things.

Thanks once again for making my day!

Jen said...

That first picture of Lainey is wonderful. ;)

Hinz fam said...

Seriously loving the pics today! Nella is looking a lot like Lainey I feel like! Also, LOVE goodnight moon hanging out on the floor in the pic of Lainey with the awesome hat and shoes ;)

Leah said...

The having children thing is the one thing that still gives me pause. Go to college? Sure, if she wants. Live on her own? Sure, if she wants. Get married? Sure, if she wants. If none of those, fine. But what if she wants to be a mommy and that reality is more complicated. It's nice to see you talk about it here too. Right now she's 15 months old, and she gives me equally big smiles when I call her "baby" as when we play with her Grammie-made "Baby". So we'll see. And that photo of the two of them in the car is really priceless. Ah, sister love. Even though I feel nowhere near ready to have a second child, that picture makes me yearn to give Cora a sister (OK, a brother would be alright too...)

Natasha said...

It was even before my first baby was born...the moment I officially became a mother...that I wanted every woman to be able to experience the indescribable joy and wonder of motherhood. I simply loved every moment of my pregnancy. Then the delivery was one of the top 5 most amazing moments of my life. Then the nursing. And on and on. Now, eight years later, I still want every woman to be able to experience motherhood the way I do (and the way you inspire me to.) But some women do not become mothers the way you and I did. However, I sincerely believe that all women can be mothers. I learned this when I read this article: http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2001/10/are-we-not-all-mothers?lang=eng&query="we+are+all+mothers". It's worth a look. Thanks for the continued inspiration!

Bethany said...

I love the meaning behind this post. So beautiful!!

Kristin said...

As a former ballerina myself, I just LOVE the ballet pictures!!

Julie @ my tiny bookworm said...

You are so right about new pyjamas! As always, your pictures are amazing. Your girls are beautiful!

Andrea said...

I'm also enjoying my girl for as long as she is mine. I say to her "how did I get so lucky to have YOU". She is pure love.

Debbie D. said...

I'm the mother of 4 girls... all now adults, and your words reflect my own heart... I wish for their happiness. And as you glimpse the future adult in your girls; I often catch glimpses of the past child in mine. Such a sweet circle of life!

Jennifer said...

I agree, there are many things that make me happy and new pjs is one of those things. I spoiled myself with a new pair a few weeks ago and I can't wait to put them on at night!

JLAS said...

Blast, You made me cry again. Thank you for putting my feelings into words, once again, with such heartfelt beauty and open honesty. Now my kids are painting pictures across from me and wondering why I'm crying. :)

Cindy said...

I just finished Bloom, the other night. It too was bittersweet for me, because I now wonder what I am going to read at night when girls are in bed and it is finally quite. I started and finished the book the same way too. Crying. As for new pajamas....i am always excited if my girls or myself have new jammies to wear, and double or triple the excitedness if we all have new jammies on the same night.

Lindsay said...

Love Melody Joy's stuff!
And this post made me smile, your girls are beautiful!
Almost finished reading Bloom and about to purchase a few more books to give away as gifts. You are so inspirational i love it!

Sadie said...

This post got me...almost made me cry at work. I'm toying aroudn with the idea of starting to write (like for serious) and you are an inspiration to me. You've figured out how to capture real feeling in words and I can't hardly wait until your next post as soon as I finish the one I'm on.

Anyways, the necklace/rings are beautiful and I LOVE the mothersday gift idea! I'm heading to the shop to browse as we speak!!

Lochhead Family said...

I, too, catch myself at times ... because I forgot about that pesky little 47th chromosome. But that 47th chromosome means dreams and goals and accomplishments that I can't even fathom. And even though my son won't be a father one day ... he's an awesome son, brother and he'll be the best uncle around when that time comes. <3

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